how about this...

I've been married now for almost 16 years and today was the first time since I was a newly wed that I have written my maiden name.  it wouldn't have been so bad except for the fact that it was on an important document.  I can't figure out why of all the times I did that, and I honestly didn't even notice that I had done it until it was pointed out and even then I didn't believe it until I saw it with my own eyes!

Sharp Needle Pains

This morning I was watching an old Carry Grant Movie while folding clothes.  My left hip felt like needles going into it.  It was so bad I wasn't sure I was going to be able to go anywhere today.  I'm not sure if this is a symptom or not, and this isn't my first experience with this kind of pain.  I'm not sure if I listed every time or not, as I don't usually go back and read the blogs after I post them.  Anyways, I thanks for reading, God Bless.

Feet and Wrist

At the beginning of last week my right wrist felt so bad, it felt like it was broken for at least three days.  I knew I hadn't done anything to my wrist so I continued to use it.  When Friday came around it was feeling normal again.  By Saturday and Sunday my right foot, then my left foot felt as if I had broken them too.  Again, I knew I hadn't done anything to them.  I am not sure if these are symptoms or not so I'm putting them here just in case I don't remember to ask the doc at my next appointment.  Who knows anymore...lol.  Thanks for reading, God bless.

On Friday

     On Friday, I forgot not just a name but briefly the whole person!  What is happening to me?  My mom was talking and she mentioned the name and the name and the person I just couldn't get,  It didn't click.  I wanted so much to ask her who was she talking about.  You talk about this person like I should know who she is.  It must of been at least three minutes before it actually clicked and by then she was already on a different subject when I blurted something out about the person.  I didn't want to scare her, but it scared me.  How could a person just be erased from memory even if it was just briefly. I spent three minutes inside my head thinking who the heck is ??????, Why is my mom talking about her like I know ?????, Do I even know anyone by that name?  Should I know anyone with that name? 
     My daddy used to call me elephant when I was younger because I never forgot anything! I didn't have a photographic memory, but I could remember what I was told to do, or what I had said, or what others had said.  I remembered lots of things, but now.  I guess sometimes I feel as if I am loosing my grip, because I can't control this whatever it is.  I just pray that one day I won't forget to pick up my kids, or forget my husband or any family member for that matter.  I pray that I will always remember how to get home and where I am going! 
Thanks for reading, God Bless!

Studering...

I can't talk right all the time, sometimes I have trouble getting words out.  It's frustrating, but I try not to pay attention to it as much as I use to.  Tonight while up in my GA's class I had a sharp pain in my lower back, it went away and then came back.  I've had other pain like this before never blogged it before,  I guess I didn't think it was important.  From now on I'm going to try to put everything in here even if I think it's insignificant, it might not be to doctors. 

Dizzy...I guess

Something really weird happened today while on our walk, picking blackberries.  I heard squirrels fighting in a tree across the street.  When I looked up, it looked as if the trees were about ready to fall on my kids, I panicked a little and then I realized that they weren't falling down around us.  It was kind of like a under water feeling almost.  Things weren't spinning, it was wavy almost.  I don't know how else to explain it.  It has never happened to me before.  Just thought I would write this down just in case it is a symptom or something.  Thanks for reading, God bless.

Things I Have Been Working On...

     I am fighting like crazy not to let the muscle aches and the rigidness get the best of me.  At the beginning of April I started slowly working out.  I took it slow, and now I am up to doing full workouts.  I do push myself, but I do know when to stop too.   If I just sit back and give in what am I teaching my kids?  That is so not me! 
     I get sharp needle feeling pains in my head, my eyes, my legs, and arms.  These don't last too long, and sometimes I am able to play them off like nothing is wrong or I was just scratching my leg or head.  Last week though my eye felt as if it actually had something crawling around in it, but there was nothing there every time I checked.  There also has been some bathroom issues that I don't want to go into detail about.  I feel tired most of the time, I think I could sleep the day through a whole 24 hours. 
     I know that I am not depressed or worried or stressed.  I really don't have anything in my life that I stress, worry, or depressed about.  I've given everything up to God and I know that his will, will be done so why worry about.  He'll take care of me and if I have to go through anything I know that there is a lesson in there either for me or for my loved ones. 
     There is still twitching, I wish that I could video every time my leg, foot or anything does it so I will have more to show the doctor at my next visit.  So far I got a picture of my stuck muscles in my hand and a video of my foot twitching.  Hopefully with this stuff they could be actually able to tell me something more. Anyway, I guess that's it for now.  Thanks for reading and God Bless. 

I have came to the conclusion that I am not going to get my body aches, and the feeling of my legs are made out of lead get the better of me.  For the last week the kids an I have been taking a walk around the neighborhood, just trying to work the stiffness feeling out of my legs.  So, I decided to try taking a bike ride.  I pushed myself all the way through, even though I wanted to turn around and go back home.  I kept going!  I might even work my way back to skating on Friday nights at our church.  I am tired, I feel as if I can't move some days.  The most thing I am tired of is not doing anything, I am going to make myself do things like walking around the block, walking upstairs, and going on bike rides.  If I don't, I might as well be in a home already!  Thanks for reading, God Bless!

My right foot

     Holy cow!  My right foot was twitching from 1:20 pm all the way until about 9:30pm.  Of course it did stop whenever I would move and do things but every time I stopped it wouldn't take long before it started all over again.  It would twitch so bad that it would make my toes move. This week as been a lot of things either progressing or something. 
     I also had the start of an optical migraine today and I was smart enough not to prolong taking the medicine.  I really didn't even have a headache; I just couldn't see so I knew it was a matter of time.  I did take the medicine, I did get a headache.  The headache didn't last for long, I have a wonderful husband that fixed dinner for us, not being able to see and all kind of plays a factor in that I guess, since I'm use to being able to see.  Other than that I had a pretty good day!  Thanks for reading, God Bless.

Weird feelings in my hands...

     This moring after the kids went to school I noticed my hands and arms felt like they needed oiling or something.  My hands were a little shaky, whenever I tried to pick up anything.  Later on in the day my left hand was stuck the muscles tightend and I couldn't move them.  They didn't stay stuck for too long.  I'm gonna start taking pictures of this when these things happen.  I guess I will do the same for my regular stiff fingers too, the regualr ones don't feel like it is the muscles.  So here is the pic of the hand.  Thanks for reading, God Bless

Something else....

Hello again,
     Tonight I actually saw my foot twitch, usually I move and I miss seeing it.  This was almost like the one this afternoon with the same feelings and movement.  Really weird!  The twitching felt strong.
Thanks for reading, God Bless.

This twitch was different

Hello everyone, I hope all is well with everyone that finds this post. 
     Today my daughter and I were at the kitchen table, she was teaching me how do make the plastic lanyard things.  Then I felt this strange tingle kind of (I really can't describe it any further than that).  I look over at my forearm.  It was twitching from my forearm, wrist and hand.  This was the first day that or the first time that a twitch has been that wide, and felt like that.  My daughter thought it was gross, she said it looked really weird because of the length it was.  Again, it disappeared as soon as I moved.  I just wish it would do this in front of the doctors. 
     My fingers on my left hand are also more rigid now.  With my hand, it's been going on for a good while, but now it is more often; just about everyday.  They get stuck and sometimes I do wonder if they will be able to move.
          Thanks for reading, God Bless.

I hate this...

Hello everyone, well this happened a few weeks ago.  I guess I was ashamed or embarrassed by this latest thing.  I was talking about my son and I had said his name and it was like a few seconds later I couldn't remember his name or even what it started with.  It was like the name didn't even exist in my vocabulary.  I think that has worried me the most as far as recent stuff goes.  I did cancel an appointment with the one that acted like I was making the whole thing up. 
     Last month I had a whole week where my body felt  so rigid and sore that I couldn't move, barely.  It hurt to walk to the bathroom and kitchen.  I have decided that I am not going to give in to this feeling anymore.  Today was the first day that my kids and I went for our walk, on the way back I felt some discomfort, but ignored it.  I would love to be able to skate again and to ride my bike without my legs feeling as if I stuck them into fast hardening cement.  I am gradually gonna work my way up to trying those things again.  I do tend to push myself, because I can';t sand sitting still and doing nothing.
Thanks for reading, God Bless.

life...i guess

Hello, I'm going to get everyone caught up.  I am going to put what I can remember.  A few weeks ago I was braiding my daughters hair, my hands got so stiff and sore it was hard for me to finish.  Last week I was so sore it was hard for me to get moving I think I only got up to take the kids to school, and then to get them from school.  I can say I think I almost slept the week away.  I have become more tired it is hard for me to keep my eyes open.  Sometimes I think I try to make myself not fall asleep while watching a movie or knowing that I need to get things done.  There are things that I have stopped doing cause it seems like its immediate lead feeling, but I have decided that I'm not giving in to it anymore!  If I want to skate I'm gonna skate, if I want to ride my bike, I'm gonna ride my bike!  Things like that.  I guess that is it for now.  Thanks for reading, God Bless.