how about this...

I've been married now for almost 16 years and today was the first time since I was a newly wed that I have written my maiden name.  it wouldn't have been so bad except for the fact that it was on an important document.  I can't figure out why of all the times I did that, and I honestly didn't even notice that I had done it until it was pointed out and even then I didn't believe it until I saw it with my own eyes!

Sharp Needle Pains

This morning I was watching an old Carry Grant Movie while folding clothes.  My left hip felt like needles going into it.  It was so bad I wasn't sure I was going to be able to go anywhere today.  I'm not sure if this is a symptom or not, and this isn't my first experience with this kind of pain.  I'm not sure if I listed every time or not, as I don't usually go back and read the blogs after I post them.  Anyways, I thanks for reading, God Bless.

Feet and Wrist

At the beginning of last week my right wrist felt so bad, it felt like it was broken for at least three days.  I knew I hadn't done anything to my wrist so I continued to use it.  When Friday came around it was feeling normal again.  By Saturday and Sunday my right foot, then my left foot felt as if I had broken them too.  Again, I knew I hadn't done anything to them.  I am not sure if these are symptoms or not so I'm putting them here just in case I don't remember to ask the doc at my next appointment.  Who knows anymore...lol.  Thanks for reading, God bless.

On Friday

     On Friday, I forgot not just a name but briefly the whole person!  What is happening to me?  My mom was talking and she mentioned the name and the name and the person I just couldn't get,  It didn't click.  I wanted so much to ask her who was she talking about.  You talk about this person like I should know who she is.  It must of been at least three minutes before it actually clicked and by then she was already on a different subject when I blurted something out about the person.  I didn't want to scare her, but it scared me.  How could a person just be erased from memory even if it was just briefly. I spent three minutes inside my head thinking who the heck is ??????, Why is my mom talking about her like I know ?????, Do I even know anyone by that name?  Should I know anyone with that name? 
     My daddy used to call me elephant when I was younger because I never forgot anything! I didn't have a photographic memory, but I could remember what I was told to do, or what I had said, or what others had said.  I remembered lots of things, but now.  I guess sometimes I feel as if I am loosing my grip, because I can't control this whatever it is.  I just pray that one day I won't forget to pick up my kids, or forget my husband or any family member for that matter.  I pray that I will always remember how to get home and where I am going! 
Thanks for reading, God Bless!

Studering...

I can't talk right all the time, sometimes I have trouble getting words out.  It's frustrating, but I try not to pay attention to it as much as I use to.  Tonight while up in my GA's class I had a sharp pain in my lower back, it went away and then came back.  I've had other pain like this before never blogged it before,  I guess I didn't think it was important.  From now on I'm going to try to put everything in here even if I think it's insignificant, it might not be to doctors. 

Dizzy...I guess

Something really weird happened today while on our walk, picking blackberries.  I heard squirrels fighting in a tree across the street.  When I looked up, it looked as if the trees were about ready to fall on my kids, I panicked a little and then I realized that they weren't falling down around us.  It was kind of like a under water feeling almost.  Things weren't spinning, it was wavy almost.  I don't know how else to explain it.  It has never happened to me before.  Just thought I would write this down just in case it is a symptom or something.  Thanks for reading, God bless.

Things I Have Been Working On...

     I am fighting like crazy not to let the muscle aches and the rigidness get the best of me.  At the beginning of April I started slowly working out.  I took it slow, and now I am up to doing full workouts.  I do push myself, but I do know when to stop too.   If I just sit back and give in what am I teaching my kids?  That is so not me! 
     I get sharp needle feeling pains in my head, my eyes, my legs, and arms.  These don't last too long, and sometimes I am able to play them off like nothing is wrong or I was just scratching my leg or head.  Last week though my eye felt as if it actually had something crawling around in it, but there was nothing there every time I checked.  There also has been some bathroom issues that I don't want to go into detail about.  I feel tired most of the time, I think I could sleep the day through a whole 24 hours. 
     I know that I am not depressed or worried or stressed.  I really don't have anything in my life that I stress, worry, or depressed about.  I've given everything up to God and I know that his will, will be done so why worry about.  He'll take care of me and if I have to go through anything I know that there is a lesson in there either for me or for my loved ones. 
     There is still twitching, I wish that I could video every time my leg, foot or anything does it so I will have more to show the doctor at my next visit.  So far I got a picture of my stuck muscles in my hand and a video of my foot twitching.  Hopefully with this stuff they could be actually able to tell me something more. Anyway, I guess that's it for now.  Thanks for reading and God Bless.