I DON'T WANT TO WAIT ANYMORE

Hey.  I just read some things from a sight and normally I don't go to them.  Anyway, someone asked a question about Parkinson's having stages and that peaked my interest.  Further reading of other posts made me very unhappy.  Sometimes a diagnoses can take 2 years and the other one said it was almost four I think before the right diagnosed was given.  I can't physically go threw anymore.  I am worn out.  My daughter told me today that I have gone to the doctor so much that she worries every time I go.  We have gone through so much last year it's really not funny.  Around Christmas time we thought that I might have cancer, trying to keep things together and trying not to let the little ones know, but they know without even a word they just know.  Thank God, we found out that I didn't have it.  But I am still no further knowing what is wrong than I was when I first started.  There are two doctor's appointments in my future, and after those two...I'm done.  At least until things get worse or something major happens (I guess that would be the symptoms getting worse...lol).  Anyway, I guess I ranted enough for today.  Goodnight everyone, Thanks for reading, God Bless.

may be i figured it out...

Hello everyone, I hope this blog today finds everyone doing well.  I think I figured out what's going on with me! I remembered that my mom had told me awhile ago that she had some minor strokes either at my age or a little older.  I wonder....if that is what is going on with me.  I guess it won't hurt to ask the neurologist the next time I'm in there.  Thanks for reading, God bless.

? New Symptom ?

Hello everyone.  I know it's been awhile since the last post but life happens.  I'm not sure if this is a symptom or not, but sometimes when I am walking there is this sharp pain that starts from my hip usually on the left hand side.  It kind of feels like hot pins or something close to it.  The messing up what I want to say or very slow at what I want to say is happening again, it wasn't bad for I don't remember, but I just started noticing that again.  My heart, here recently feels as if it could just beat right out of my chest, which makes me short of breath when that happens.  Most of the time these episodes only last a few minutes or seconds.  I have been doing things that is not good for my arrhythmia such as, coffee, chocolate an things like that because of the caffeine so that could definitely be the cause of the heart thing.  I'm trying to see if I can remember anything else that has happened or that is new, but nothing is coming to mind right now.  I guess this is all for now.  Thanks for reading.

New I guess

Hello everyone.  Well I guess this could be a new symptom.  I am having a hard time swallowing, like I need to swallow, but my throat feels as if it closes before I can so I have to swallow a harder than I should.  I don't know if this means anything or not, but it's here so I won't forget about it.  I have an appointment in November and I hope that I can have all of this printed up for my doctor.  I have trouble still remembering things, and I mess up what I am saying a lot, sometimes it's backwards and other times it's like I know what I want to say but it is just not connecting to my brain, or visa versa and that drives me crazy.  I did walk in the Susan G. Komen Race for the cure it was 3 something miles and I wasn't sure how my legs will do.  They did great and the kids and I finished in a little under an hour.  We normally walk about that long around the block and at the beach it is always longer than that.  I was fine I guess.  Going up the stairs is a pain the first three are okay, but anything after that my legs feel as if they had lead or something strapped to them and it hurts to move them, that is why I don't skate on skate night at church anymore and I still keep trying to do the things that hurt because, I don't just want to sit on my ass and wait for someone to say oh we finally know what your diagnoses is.  By then my muscles might have shrinked to nothing if I just sat around, especially if I see another one like I did in August making me feel like I was a lair and that it must be all in my freakin' head.  I wanted to SCREAM: WHO THE HECK DO YOU THINK YOU ARE? IF YOU ACTUALLY READ MY FILE YOU WOULD KNOW THAT THERE IS SOMETHING WRONG WITH THE FRONTAL LOPES AND IT ISN'T SOMETHING THAT I AM LYING ABOUT! SO YOU NEED TO GO BACK TO MED SCHOOL OR RETIRE AND LET YOUR INTERN TAKE OVER!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
Sorry I guess I just had to get that out again.  I guess that's enough from me tonight...lol. God Bless.

Migrans and Forgetfulness

Hello everyone, okay so this past Friday I had one of the worst migane ever.  It came on so fast I hardly had time to blink.  I went to lunch with a bunch of friends from the school where I volunteer.  It took me a long time to order my food, I knew what I wanted I just couldn't remember what it was and I couldn't even say it.  it kind of felt like someone or something was preventing parts of my brain to connect with the other parts. What felt like ten minutes of not being able to put simple words together to let the very understanding lady behind the counter know what I wanted was probably only five minutes.  While eating and talking my vision started to leave and by the time lunch was over i could see only one face at a time and only if i were looking directly at the person,  My friend had to take me home so my husband could go back and get the car.  I had to take double the amount of medicine.  It was scary, like I've said I had never encountered one that delayed my speech and thought process. 
Monday, just a little bit ago, I forgot what a yellow ribbon was for.  How could anyone forget that.  Out of all of the ribbons I could've forgotten.  It makes me truly sick that I forgot that the yellow ribbons are for our soldiers.  I honestly don't know what I was thinking.  I love our soldiers and want them all to come back safe and sound.  I see the yellow ribbons all the time on my fb page too, i played it off how badly it bothered me, oh it's a Monday or I'm not awake yet i haven't had enough coffee, but when I asked i truly did not remember and to me that is something of a big deal.  I even have one on my blog and it's been there since i started writing it so i know i knew i just had no clue this morning.  they seriously need to find out what is wrong with me...i do;t know how much of days like this i can take.  it makes me literally want to scream to the top of my lungs.  i support our soldiers active and non active retired or just got out i support them 100%!  My hubby is my hero!

I'm so Tired

Hello everyone.  I guess this might be a new symptom.  About a month ago I have started to get very tired.  normally wouldn't go to bed until way past mid-night, now I am lucky if I make it past 10pm.  Then I will wake up at least 3 times for no reason.  During the day I sleep.  I wake up long enough to volunteer at my son's school and when I get home I am able to check a few things on my computer and then fall asleep right in the middle of it.  I must have an eternal alarm clock 'cause I usually wake myself up at 2 so I can meet him at the bus stop.  Anyways, I guess this too is stuff I need to remember to tell my regular neurologist and maybe he will send me to someone who actually takes the time with me.  My arm is still driving me crazy from all the twitching it is doing.  Thanks for reading, God Bless.

More things to try to remember

Hello everyone.  Ok I guess these are fairly new symptoms.  For awhile now I can be in the middle of saying something and then I get stuck and I know what I am going to say cause my brain is like saying it over and over again.  It's like the word is just not taking the proper channels to get to my mouth so I can say it.  The other thing is today, my arm has been twitching almost constantly except for when I move and then as soon as it doesn't it will start right back up again.  Then my left cheek started twitching too, but that one was quick.  That's all I have so far.  Thanks for reading, God Bless.

I'm Back

     Hello everyone.  I am finally back.  I have lots to say about this whole medical thing.  But first, I was gone because  couldn't remember the blog password, email, or what site my blog was on to begin with.  I finally found the thing that I written everything down on, YAY!
     Okay, here is the medical thing that has happened since the last time I blogged.  I was seen by yet another doctor, who in my opinion was useless.  He is suppose to be a specialist, a professional.  Anyway, I went to him and he had his med student which seemed to me that he cared more about me than the doctor did.  Ask me tons of questions, anyway that was fine.  Then when I saw the doctor, he asked me if there was anything in the news that I was following (now the news was playing the entire time in the waiting room), I said the hurricane.  Anyways he asked me about that too.  Then about something else that was on the news ALOT.  Then he asked me to look at a picture and write down what I saw, so I did.  The he told me the rest that I had missed and told me to write it down too.  He flipped through not even reading the other doctors notes which in them said that there was a frontal lobe problem, and looked at me and said that the other doc had also found nothing wrong...REALLY, thank God that that other doctor sent me my own copy and I know for a fact that it doesn't say that there is nothing wrong.  He takes a phone call on his CELL PHONE and excuses himself from the office during my appointment then basically comes back in and tells me that I am a lair!  WHAT?  Really?  I can't wait to tell my regular neurologist about this one.  I felt like I don't know, it was weird! Anyway, thanks for reading! God Bless

This Past Weekend and Today

Hello everyone,  Well last week was our church's VBS and it went great there was nothing going on that made me feel weird other than the fact that my eye was still twitching.  It is getting better now finally after 3 weeks.  Saturday my niece had a skating party, my knee felt a little stiff, but that went away and my legs got tired, but I tried my best to keep on skating.  I haven't really done much of anything, except walk around the block but my arm muscles wow, on my left arm just hurt.  I also have noticed this place on my head its not a bump or anything and I didn't hit it.  It is on my left side and it is tender to the touch, maybe I've chewed too much gum, but I had two pieces on Sunday and one piece today, so that might not be it.  I still need to have my eyes checked, upon my husband's request.  I did got to the ENT (not sure if I wrote about that or not) luckily I don't have to go back there again...or at least anytime soon.  Other than that nothing really new to report.  Thanks for reading, God Bless.

This Week So Far

Hello everyone, Well not too much is been going on.  My right eye is still twitching, just not as bad and not as often as it was before.   My hands both of them in the palms have started hurting all of a sudden and I really haven't done anything different with them than usual.  My speech is a little off and I have messed up a lot of what I want to say especially today I think I have noticed it more,  Anyways, have a good night and God Bless,  Thanks for reading.

ENT and CT Scan

Ok so today I had to go to an ENT to get the cyst on my sinus cavity looked at.  Good news there is nothing to worry about with that.  My eye is still twitching come this Friday it will be 2 weeks.  Today there was a few sharp pains with it just a few minutes ago... Anyway, that is all for now.  Thanks for reading God Bless.

Encephalopathy, Acute

Hello everyone, well this is what the doctor is looking for now, some kind of toxin in my blood but Parkinson's can't be ruled out.  I don't know if they will ever find out what is going on...haaaa...lol.  Okay so I didn't know rapid eye movement was a symptom and on occasion I have that, not very often.  My right eye is still twitching.  Anyway, I don't have another appointment until August.  I hope this one will shed more light on this.  i know that the doctor I see regularly has tested my blood for almost everything under the sun and beyond.  Thanks for reading.  God Bless.
Looked up the definition on www.healthline.com  he has not diagnosed me with this, I am sure he would tell me instead of me reading it on the piece of paper.  I am curious if me being anorexic when I was younger has anything to do with this since it mentioned nourishment.  Anyways,  I think healthline has a pretty good definition about it.  Again, thanks for reading, God Bless!

This Weekend

Hello everyone,  well my eye started twitching Friday morning and has been on again off again all weekend long.  I don't think it's noticeable but to me because I can feel it.  My arm did something weird and I'm not sure how to explain it, but it was right where the joints are in the elbow.  Anyway, the same twitching and things are still going on.  My husband and I talked a little about the symptoms and things over the campfire.  We both agree that my personality has changed a little, but we didn't discuss as to what exactly he has noticed.  I guess that is it for now.  Thanks for reading, God bless.

Another Skate Night

Hello everyone, well tonight was yet another skate night and I pushed myself.  I was skating fine for at least fifteen minutes and then the feeling of lead or weights started in my legs and the more I pushed through the more it felt as if it radiated up to my hips.  After that I seemed to have to skate twice and then took a break and by half way through the night it was one trip around and stop and then I just got tired and watched from the chair.  Which was okay I guess, I kept watch over the bake sale.  I don't know what's going on.  I just thank God to give me the strength that he gives me and I try to go on with a smile on my face.  I can't let it get me down, whatever it is it is and there is nothing I can do but keep praying and keep my faith strong. Thanks for reading.

Is there anyone that can help me?

Hello everyone.  I am just so tired of all the tests and doctors and forgetting things and having my hand stiffen ad the twitching.  I want to know how much more money, gas, time do I have to spend I much more does my family have to be worried.  I know that I have given it all up to God and that it is in his hands, so I know I am taken care of.  I just want to know what it is, they have ruled out what it's not and Parkinson's is still at the top of the list for things they have yet to rule out.  This wouldn't be so bad if they could tell me once and for all what it is.  I don't like working with my hands as much as I use to because they are getting a little slow and I can't grab things the way I use to.  I make myself use them anyway.  Oh, I don't know.  I know that I will get by and I will endure everything else that the doctors have for me to do, because I know when I feel as if I can't go on, God gives me the strength to go through it.  Thanks for reading.  God Bless.

My Uneventfull Appointment

Hello everyone, well the good news is the PET Scan was good.  The bad news they are not any closer in figuring this out.  They cannot rule out Parkinsons' and I forget to print this out so I can give it to him.  I had more blood drawn and I have to go see two new doctors and I might need to have a very expensive blood test done, which the insurance may or may not cover.  I just want all of this to be over with.  I am so tired of being poked and scanned and everything.  I went the wrong way twice on the way to my sisters house and the bad thing is I didn't even realize it until it was too late to change lanes.  My left hand had began to stiffen, he (the doctor) asked me today if they curl up, no they just stay in one position and it hurts when I try to massage it out, the fingers go right back where they were.  I don't know, I guess I just want answers and this is what I have to go through to get them.  Thanks for reading and God Bless.

My hands

Hell everyone, today was a good day other than the fact that my left hand would tighten up and wouldn't move, or hurt when I did.  It was very uncomfortable, but what can I do...I just let it run its course and sometimes when I would massage it but it would just get stuck all over again.  Anyway, enough complaining...lol. It could always be worse.  Thanks for reading...God Bless.

Bad Night

Hello everyone,  I honestly don't know how I made it through the day and night last night.  I had the worst headache of all time.  I know I should've taken something for it way before I did.  I can't stand taking anything, I don't know why.  By the time I made it home last night it was soo bad I cried and got really nauseated.  This is the first migrain that I have had that made me nauseated.  I am blessed with great kids that were quite, and played a board game together.  Thank you for reading, God Bless.

Something new

Hello everyone, today I was driving back home when the left side of my head above the ear was twitching.  It felt really weird usually if there is twitching on my head it hurts, this one did not. Thanks for reading.  God Bless.

Back Twitches

Hello everyone, well today it was definately different.  My back, upper back was twitching like crazy today.  It didn't hurt or anything, just felt really weird.  Thanks for reading.  God Bless.

Words

Hello everyone,  nothing really new to report.  However on Sunday I did have a hard time spelling simple words.  I had forgotten how to spell school three times.  It might not sound like a really big deal but when you completely forget how to spell it, and then you remember but you can't get your hand to cooperate with your brain it is frustrating, then I had to ask my husband how to spell it.
I feel as if my speech is slow sometimes when I try to talk fast or at all.  Sometimes it doesn't come out right.  I know my dog is a dog and sometimes I will call him a cat (it would be OK if I did that on purpose).  The problem is I know what I want to say I just might not get out the right words. 

Skating Tonight

Hello everyone, I was at the church skating and again, my hips felt really stiff and my legs felt like bricks.  I rested for a few minutes but I kept pushing myself.  It's just, the way I am.  I will get through this with God and my family by my side and friends too.  It just stinks that my legs and hips have to feel that way.  When skating first started they didn't do this.  I have been working out but it is not very much yet and would not cause me to feel like that especially since they have felt like this before without me working out.  Anyways, thanks for reading and God Bless.

Twitch

Hello everyone,
This is about yesterday.  Everything was going great.  I went to the dentist, I don't have any new cavities, yay me.  I had lunch with my husband, and stopped by a shop.  I was on my way home when the upper left part of my head felt like it was twitching and when my head does this it hurts.  I have a very high tolerance for pain, so I can imagine that it was bad if I thought it hurt.  While it was still twitching I prayed that I would make it home safe and sound.  I did.  I picked the kids up at the bus stop, and went to my not so favorite store, picked up somethings and that was it.  It seemed like everything was amplified, the sounds, my tolerance level, all I wanted was to go home and sleep.  I went to sleep in my husband's chair, and the kids were playing in their room, and my husband was working on the computers.  I felt a little better after my short nap, but I was still drained.  Thanks for reading, God bless.

Yesterday...

Hello everyone.  I have been so tired lately.  If I keep going to bed early I'll be going to bed at the kids bed time...lol.  Seriously, what I wanted to type in here was I had a new twitch last night.  After I got dressed in my PJ's I proped my feet on the coffee table and was looking at sales papers when the right side underneath my chin twitched, it didn't last very long but it was weird.  My muscles felt all tight.  Still doesn't hurt or anything, but it was different! Thanks for reading.  God Bless.

Today I Feel...

Hello everyone.  I got good news.  The good news is that today after eating was the first day in a very long time that I don't feel sick afterwards.  I have not heard from the doctor's yet, still waiting.  Thanks for reading.  God Bless.


I Love Glo Worms...lol!

? New Symptom ?

Hello everyone.  I am not sure is this would be a new symptom or not, but for the past three weeks I think I have been smelling hair dye.  I haven't dyed my hair in at least two to three months ago.  This morning the smell of bubble gum was so strong, I had to ask the kids if they had any?  They said no, I kind of knew that they didn't because the gum that they did have was mint and this was no where close to mint.  Well, that was it I just wanted to type it in so I wouldn't forget in case it means something, I never know anymore...lol.
Thanks for reading.  God Bless.

PET SCAN

Hello everyone.  Today was the Pet Scan, wow it was not as long as I thought it would be and not that bad of a test.  I signed in, and got the little I.D. bracelet with bar code and then I had to go down the hall to another waiting room and get checked in there.  I had a quick questionnaire to fill out and after that it wasn't very long at, before I got called back.  A nurse (I guess), checked my sugar and then said it was good and that he would be back with the i.v. to set up the injection site (radiation).  My sister was there and asked him some questions and he was more than happy to answer them.  Sometimes, they don't like to share their knowledge with others.  She got to stay in there with me until he had to inject the stuff.  I was left alone for an hour (I fell asleep).  After the hour was up, the scan itself only took 10 minutes.  It wasn't too bad!  I'd rather have this test than the noisy MRI.  Hopefully they will have a better idea on what to diagnose me with if anything at all. Thanks for reading.  God Bless.

The Things I did today...

Hello everyone.  Alright, so Far today I have forgotten what month is was, remembered what the day was though.  I might of messed up on some bills too.  I might have sent the wrong one with nothing in it and the other to the wrong place.  I don't remember.  I am usually pretty good about bills.  Other that its going good.  my daughter and I are going skating tonight, I hope I don't have that weighed down feeling again.  Thanks for reading.  God Bless.

?

Good morning everyone.  Well I must be messing up when I talk even if I thought I said the right words.  I believe that I said leave but my daughter swears I said weave.  This one I am not so sure about.  However I know that I called my dog a cat this morning, I didn't do it on purpose, but I played it off like well he does act like a cat.  I have been reading up on this PET scan, it doesn't seem to bad.  My mother-n-law has had to have one and she says they are  one of the best tests they have to see what is wrong.  I think they will ask me questions and maybe even ask me to read something while it is going on.  I won't know till I go there to have it done.  I wish all of this was over and done with and I had a diagnoses so I can plan on things.  Like I said before, I have given it all up to God and since I've done that I try to be fearless about it.  Anyways, thanks for reading.  God Bless.

More appointments and more tests

Hello everyone.  Well I got a phone call today.  I have two more appointments which are tests.  I have one this month and that is for a pet scan or something like it and the other one isn't until August.  I should be nervous or scared I guess.  More tests, more new doctors, but I would be lying if I said I'm not at all.  I am a little but it is what it is and if there is anything then so what with God on my side, I gave it all up to him and it has been in his hands ever since the first MRI.  From that day on, I am not as worried about it.  I'm not as scared as I would be if I hadn't of gave it up to him.  Thanks for reading.  God Bless.

Today I Feel...

Hello everyone.  Today I feel weird.  I don't know how to describe it.  Okay here is what is going on.  For the past week, everytime I eat I feel nausheated, but never vomit or dry heave {which is a really good thing}, My knee on my left leg trys or feels like it could give out.  I am a little scared of this because I don't want to fall in front of people and stuff.  Yesterday, I NEVER, EVER forget my coupons, and I did.  My leg jumped a couple of times last night when I had them prompt up on the coffee table.  When this happens I get a little nervous and I look at my husband to see if he saw it which I am always praying that he doesn't.  This morning my right foot had twitches, my daughter and I were playing hide and seek although she never did tell her brother that that is what she was up too.  We were on my husband's side of the bed, giggling when I noticed it.  She normally gets grossed out my the twitches if they are really strong.  Thankfully this one was not that strong.  Sometimes things don't taste the way they should.  This afternoon I grabbed one of their fruit snacks and to me it tasted like Tequila, I kept eating them, I think only to see if what I tasted was really what I tasted and to me every one of them tasted just like it.  I have noticed to and hope that no one else has but sometimes when I talk and sometimes even when I drink I drool or I miss my mouth.  I don't know if any of this stuff is realevant at all, but I told you that today I just feel weird and now have a headache, so on that note I will leave everyone on the wish that you all have a wonderful Saturday.  Thanks for reading, God Bless.

Two Months From Now...

Hello again,  I have another neurology appointment in two months...why?  I'm not sure.  Maybe it was because I bought my kids with me for the last one and it was a little distracting although they were very well behaved.  I am very proud of them for being my little angels yesterday...it happens often enough but it is especially important when they are in a place like that.  Oh and today I completely forgot that I had turned off the TV and was wondering why it was off then I remembered about ten minutes later that I turned it off when I turned the stereo on...lol.  It's crazy.  Anyways, that's all for now.  Thanks for reading.  God Bless.

Doctor's Appointment

Well hello everyone.  Nothing new to report other than the fact that I forgot which floor his office was on and I was bound and determend to get into the door that I thought it should be.  My knee almost gave out on the way out of the office (after realizing that I was on the wrong floor).  He is going to try to get me an appointment for another test.  He said that this is another long one.  And instead of waiting 18 months for another cognitive test it will be 12.  He is going to contact the oncologist again and see why I hadn't heard about the ear nose and throat doctor that he said he would get an appointment for me with.  I think I do have something new to report and that is I have noticed weakness in my right hand, which happens to be the hand that I write and draw with.  It's a good thing that before this ever happened I was teaching myself to use the left hand.  I'm not sure how good it is at writing but drawing it looks pretty good.  Anyway, I guess I will blog more later when and if anything new happens.  Thanks for reading.  God Bless!

Doctor's Appointment

Hello everyone.  Well my doctor's appointment is coming up and I have no idea what is going to happen at this one.  This evening my middle back was twitching which is a new one for me.  My left foot has been twitching a little more than normal and there has been some involuntary movement on my right leg.  It's not all the time.  Last Friday night I went skating again and this time it didn't feel like lead or weighted down.    I guess I will type more when there is more to share.  Thanks for reading.  God Bless.

This Week

This week I got the report back from the doctor and it said that I could have the very early stages of Parkinsons.  Which is nothing new, he had already dicussed that this could be what it is but he can't give a diagnoses as of yet. 
Okay now for friday.  Friday my knee on my right side hurt with every step.  Then that night I went skating my legs felt like lead.  I had to keep sitting down and resting.  I am not sure if this is a new symptom or not but I wasn't going to let it stop me from skating at my daughter's birthday party.  The good news is I didn't fall!
Saturday my right leg hurt with every step, I looked but there doesn't seem to be anything wrong as far as apprences go.  I have no idea why it's only the right side.
Today, my right leg no longer hurts.  There was a strong twitch on my upper, outer right thigh and then a few twitches on my right inner thigh.  After that stopped there was twitching on my left shoulder. That's it for now.  I can't think of anything else to add.  Thanks for reading.  God Bless!

Non Diagnoses But...

Hello everyone. 10 days ago was my doctor's appointment and I think we might be a little closer to figuring this out. The doctor  said that I need to take one more test at the hospital for another brain thing. Anyway the good news is that I am not depressed and my stress is normal and that the twitching and things IS NOT ALL IN MY HEAD unlike some people believe. The doctor said that what is going on with me is real. Something to do with my frontal lobes and motor skills.  The day after my appointment my ring finger and pinkie on my left hand was twitching strongly off and on all that day.  A few days ago my legs did these weird things.  And sometimes I am noticing that my smell is off.  Popcorn sometimes smells like boiled peanuts and then starts tasting like dirt.  I guess that is everything for right now.  I haven't been writing this stuff down like I use to so I might have forgotten somethings.  Thanks for reading.  God Bless.

More things I forgot

Hello everyone,  Okay I will start with the most recent to the furthest away.  Today I had just gotten out of the car and I had only walked a few steps when it felt like my knee was going to give out.  This might be considered as hard to swallow but a lot of the times it feels like there is a lump in my throat and I find myself swallowing a few more times than usual.  The last one I remembered was on the fourth of July when we were watching our Friends shooting fireworks.  I had to watch them with my sunglasses on because the light seemed really bright, brighter than I remember from the years before. I think that covers everything that I had forgotten.  Thanks for reading.  God Bless.

Little Things...

Hello everyone.  There might be some little things that I need to add in here.  I'm not sure how relevant they are, I've remembered things and didn't write them down when it first came back to me now I got to see if I can remember them again. 
My legs feel like weights when I walk upstairs.  Around Christmas time I noticed that I was walking different.  I just thought it was a sign that I was getting tired.  When I first start out on a grocery day I didn't notice it but later on I noticed that my back wasn't has straight and I was walking like kind of a hunchback but no s drastic as that, I don't know.  Oh yeah, I just remembered a couple of years ago, and sometimes even now my muscle under my ribs usually on the right side when  cough or laugh hard the muscle will get tight and hard and it's painful.  My ex stepmother had asked me if I had a hernia, I said no that it just happens sometimes.  My lip on the left side just twitched but it was for a second.  Okay that's it for now.  I need to go and try to motivate myself to do some housework to day.  Thanks for reading.  God Bless.

Reviewing my Cognitive test in my head

Hello everyone.  Okay, first this morning I had to get gas.  I pulled up and did everything I was suppose to do, the only problem was that I didn't remember if I swiped my card or not.  I was thinking about this the entire time I was pumping my gas.  When the receipt printed out it had the last four of my number on it so I must have.  I still don't remember swiping it though.  Yesterday was my cognitive testing, there was a questionnaire I had to circle 0 to some number and I guess I answered some of them wrong.  Like are you depressed, my sister, my friend, my father - n - law, and my husband think I am a little bit.  I guess I am, I mean I find myself sitting on the sofa most days when I should be doing other things I don't know if that qualifies as being depressed.  I also know that I should be doing my craft stuff so I can make enough to take to a craft fair this coming November.  The question about getting choked, I think I should've circled that one two.  I don't even have to be drinking anything for me to get choked.  I guess I am thinking about what if this is Parkinson's, how my life and my family's will change.  I love to go to the beach, I love to walk, I want a pair of quad roller skates so I can go skating with the kids (I have roller blades but it's not the same) and I would love to bike ride with the kids.  How long do I have before I can't drive my kids to the beach or any of that.  I do always try to think positively and not negatively, because I know that what ever it is or what ever it's not it really doesn't matter because my life is in God's hands, it always has been.  So I guess I am just a little worried about it, who wouldn't be.  I try really hard not to let it get to me because whatever it is, it is and that's that.  No amount of worrying or depression (ok that's really weird, I am sitting here typing and I got a new twitch kind of under my arm.  It felt weird) where was I; ok no amount of worrying or depression can make it better or go away.  Alright, I'm done for now.  But if anything else happens during the day I will try to remember to blog it or write it down so I can blog about it later.  Goodbye for now, God Bless.

Cognitive Testing

Hello everyone.  Well the cognitive testing I think went pretty good.  I answered questions, took a spelling test, put a puzzle together blind folded and other stuff.  I won't know anything more though for another 2 weeks.  I am still up at 2am I was looking up roller skates and then campers/RVs when my left leg started twitching, not in the normal type that I am use to it's more like it jumped.  I'm not sure if this is a new symptom or not so I thought while it is still fresh in my mind that I better put it in this blog so I wouldn't forget.  I will find out my fate 2 weeks from today, I think my mom and sd (step dad) will be going with me, that's good cause if its bad news I won't be alone.  It's funny that I write about my leg jumping and it was doing it for awhile too, it has stopped now.  Well I guess that's it for now.  God Bless.

Catching Up

Hello everyone.  Sorry for the delay, but I forgot my email address for the blog.  I got it now.  Last Friday was my grocery day.  I enjoyed it until, about half the day.  Every time I walked, my right foot when I applied pressure to it I had pain in my hip.  It was sharp, and it has happened since then, just I don't know what it means.  A lot of people tell me oh everything you are going through is because you are getting older.  Really, some of the older people I know said I shouldn't be going through any of this yet.  This Sunday I forgot how to spell worship, I had to look for it on the program, I almost forgot how to write service (twice), I miss spelt gospel and even now it doesn't look write and to top it all off I missed my mouth when I was eating this happened once but it made me nervous a little thinking that I might just do it again.  Which wouldn't be that big of deal if I hadn't of been at church.  I think that is all I have to catch up on, I try to keep notes so I can type them in here later but I need to start putting them in one place 'cause I think I lost some of them.  Thanks for reading God Bless.

The Next Step

Hello everyone,
     Okay so my appointment yesterday went pretty good.  I have some good news and some finally we are getting somewhere news.  My new doctor, has ruled out MS, Demincia, and Alzheimer's which is good because I was afraid that I really could be getting into the early stages of Alzheimer's, I use to joke about it but I don't think I will be doing that anymore.  That has to be very very scary for people who do have it. 
 On my next appointment I will be tested for the cognitive testing which will last five hours.  He will be looking into Parkinson's and a couple other things. 
 Yesterday  I was asking the kids about homework and I said okay we need to turn off the homework instead of turning off the T.V. 
Today so far was going pretty good.  My son is home sick today and I was suppose to meet a friend of mine at church but I found myself along with my son sleeping until it was way past the time that I was suppose to meet her.  I tried to call the church, but she had left already and there is three numbers on my phone with the same name except one is spelt wrong and I know who that one is.  I texted my husband and he gave me their home number but there is no answer.  I feel really bad about not showing up and probably would feel a lot better about it once I can talk to her.  I was also suppose to bring a suggestion box to the church too.  I can drop that off tomorrow because I still have to paint it.  Thanks for reading and if I can think or remember or I anything different I will be back to blog about it.  God Bless.

This Weekend

Hello to all.  I have found myself caring around a little notebook and write things down that I want to blog about so I won't forget.  So now I am going over my notes about this weekend.  Let's start with Friday.

Friday night my right forearm started twitching, I remember it because my forearms have never twitching before.  It was king of strong. 

Saturday morning I almost fell over backward, I lost my footing I guess.  Then my right side under my rib cage was twitching, this twitching lasted awhile.  I also tried to spell nice and got the letters backwards, I think I spelt it neci instead of nice.

Sunday, today my fingers on my left hand are still sore, not stiff or anything.  I am having trouble spelling again today, or I am leaving out words when I am writing.  I was however able to write a children's story this morning.  I did have a twitch briefly in my abdomen while in Sunday school.  There is a sharp pain on my left should and that feels like jabs, it comes and goes.   It has stopped now.  I guess that is all I have for now.  Thanks for reading.  God Bless.

Something new

Hello everyone.  Well today there was something new.  My right leg muscle cramped, I guess you can call it that it just felt really heavy and tight.  Today at church when I walked up the stairs, both of my legs felt like lead.  It wasn't my whole leg even early it was my calf muscles.  Once I got up stairs they felt a very tired, but that feeling didn't last too long.  Thanks for reading. 

Thumb twitching

Hello everyone.  I hope everyone had a great and blessed day.  I did.  This morning my thumb on my left hand twitched.  I'm not sure for how long.  I think it has twitched before now, I never saw it for sure until I saw it for myself today. My stomach in the middle I felt a little twitch and just a few minutes ago my eyebrow on my left side just twitched.  My knee sometimes twitches and it feels so strong like it is moving the knee cap.  I haven't been able to see it for myself because whenever I feel it I move and it goes away.  That one should be pretty interesting to see if I ever get the chance.  Other things that have happened today or sometime yesterday is...I forgot all about the pork chops we  were going to have for dinner last night, I left them in the microwave, the power went out and I didn't think about it anymore I called my husband and he my picked up Chinese food.  I don't know how long I have been doing this but for a little while now I have been forgetting to shut the toilet lid after using it.  It use to bug me. I get foot cramps that are painful and toes get stuck but it doesn't last long.  It might be because it is cold outside and stuff gets stiff I guess.  Oh and for about a year now my side or the muscle right underneath my rib I don't remember which one, but when I cough, a deep cough or laugh really hard I get stiff right there a painful cramp right there.  I'm not sure if it means anything or not. Thanks for reading.

Update...

Happy New Year everyone.  Okay so here we are in a new year.  I have a new insurance company so my cognitive testing was put on hold.  I have such a wonderful husband who made all the calls and arranged for my new appointment for me.  This is kind of a set back because it is further away and I have to go to a consultation all over again, but that's okay.  It's kind of like getting a second opinion.  Anyways, the latest on my twitching and stuff is... my left foot has started twitching now.  I felt it for the first time on Friday night and when I went to see if I could see it for myself it stopped.  It started twitching again Saturday night, but again I moved slowly in hopes that it wouldn't stop so I could see it but no such luck, it stopped before I actually saw it.  Sunday morning I woke up to my left hand middle and four finger was very stiff and felt as if had been broken.  My husband said that it was probably from the cold because his was a little stiff too.  They feel alright to me now.  Thanks for reading and I will try to keep this updated more frequently.